When traveling most people begin with a plan. They plan the destination(s), activities/sights to see, places to eat, etc. They get to their destination and there’s a strict schedule to follow – after all – they have a plan! So the trip becomes regimented and to the T. 

Here’s my advice: take your plan, crumble that shit up, throw it in the trash and RELAX! Go with the flow. Let the adventure come to you – and then run like hell with it! 

Many people do not understand the beauty in adventure. Adventure is not just visiting a new place, but really exploring the unknown without an agenda – a scheduled plan that tells you where to be and at what time. 

Being a planner is boring. I know this because I’ve been a planner all of my life, yet I’ve never experienced more freedom, adventure and fun times as much as I have this trip the moment I threw my plan out the window. 

Be courageous enough to try new things you never thought you would. See what the world has to offer, explore its nooks and crannies through roads less traveled. Learn as much as you can about your destination and imprint it like a photo in your mind. Culture is a beautiful thing – share yours and take in others. Be open and flexible for that’s the best way to explore the world – no plan needed! 

I imagine the workhouse with dull gray walls smelling of dust and sweat

With children receiving lessons in the form of a long fulmination from the wet lips of uneducated teachers

They inhale the silent threat and exhale their freedom as they sit beset

By those around them

I imagine men, women and children all beaten

Not on the skin, but in mind and spirit

No, not on the skin

But their heart and souls would bear it

The daily bell that sounds at the start and end of each workday reminds them that religion has made them servants of labor

The curtain of poverty covers them in darkness, clouding their hope of seeing their loved ones

And leaving unspoken words on their tongues

I imagine the women and girls as workhouse whores,

Domestic slaves bound by the strands of the rags in which they used to carry out their chores

The men break stones of dignity to build roads in which they would never travel

For the reality is that they are at the mercy of the workhouse with no other means of survival

The moon sparkles on the water like a million diamonds waiting to be cut into shapes that fit into rings waiting to be placed on the fingers of virgins
The wind blows whispers of love on their silky untouched skin
The stars sprinkle gentle kisses from the dark skies,
but a few passing clouds invite them to spread their thighs beneath them
And a storm begins
The salty rain pierces the gems and rolls down their cheeks hot as blood
The wind screams for release as the stars disappear into the night sky leaving behind the clouds to penetrate the darkness
And when the storm passes there they lay

Emotions can be such empty feelings

Meaningless to those who don’t understand

Maybe you should give me your hand,

And I’ll let you stand where I stand

I’ll let you see the things I’ve seen

And I’ll let you feel what I felt

But I’ll warn you: It isn’t pretty

From where I’m standing I’ve seen my teddy bear ripped apart

Drugs and cash took the place of her fluffy little heart

I was in head start

From where I’m standing mommy and daddy are yelling

Soon, they’ll come for me

And I’ll get beat

From where I’m standing I can see the silver metal

I know soon my knees will be bleeding

And I’ll be pleading

Please stop, please stop

But it’ll be useless

From where I stand I feel unimportant, unwanted

I still feel haunted

Nothing I did was ever right

Do you know what that feels like for a child?

But I still smiled

Until that day when I felt his weight

I was seven or eight

I felt his hands as they grasped places unknown to me

And I felt shame

Unaware of what I did to deserve these things

I felt scared

And when he was done I just sat there and stared

At the empty feelings of my emotions

Because I was too little to understand

Now from where you stand you can keep on judging me

But until you stand where I stand

Until you see what I see

And you feel what I feel

You will never understand what it takes to heal

And my emotions will be empty feelings,

Meaningless to you




You’ve made me feel like her again
The little girl sad and vulnerable
Without a voice
You’ve made me feel alone again
Cast aside and unloved
Scared and scarred
Without a voice
You’ve made me feel powerless
Like the little girl with her arms tied behind her back
Without a voice
You’ve made me feel detached
Like somehow I don’t belong
Numb, just like that little girl
Without a voice
You’ve made me feel her shame again
Like I am the only one at fault
You’ve made me feel her pain again
Though in a different way, of course
You’ve made me feel like that small little girl again
Sad, tortured and lonely
Without a voice
You’ve made me feel guarded
Like I need to protect my heart and hers
For we both have no voice

Dear GOD,
You’ve saved my life so many times
You’ve protected me without fail
You never, ever leave my side
Staying with me on my trail
You always forgive my sins
Regardless of how bad they are
Your love never fails me
It’s as sure as the Northern Star
GOD, help me to stay on the path you chose for me
For no one knows better than you
Please GOD, hear my plea
Help me to always love, honor and do right by you
Protect my family and those I love
Send us Angels to always be with us
Bless my marriage from above
Guide us in your love and care
Hear my prayer Lord
And when I don’t have the words, or I lose my faith
Help me to remember that you paid the price forward
For my Salvation
GOD, I love you
And I thank you in advance
For giving me life anew
For giving me another chance
Write my name in the book of life
With an ink that never erases
That one day Lord, I’ll live in your Kingdom
With no more hurt or strife
The devil wants my soul
But he fails to understand Lord
You already paid the toll
So my soul is safely yours
I give my life and my heart to you
Please help me to stay true to your word
Give me a chance to walk with you
Make my heart shiny and new
I thank you Lord, for waking me
For giving me new breathe everyday
Thank you Lord, for paying the price for me
In Jesus name I pray

I’m running this race against time
And I’m slowly falling behind
I didn’t realize the route had so many hills to climb
Or how much these roads would wind
I’m willing my feet to continue to move
I don’t want to be in last place
I need to find my groove
Then keep that steady pace
There are roadblocks all along the way
And red flags line the pavement
But I’m trying hard not to stray
I don’t want to become complacent
Failure is not an option for me
As I push myself to the limit
I just want to be set free
I can’t let anything crush my spirit
I can almost see the finish line
When suddenly I trip and fall
Bleeding what looks like deep red wine
I continue the race by a crawl
I’m going to reach the end
If it’s the last thing I do
Because that’s where I’ll learn how to mend
And start my life anew